Jesus is the Hope of Glory

Saturday, August 6, 2011

I'm Looking For Something

Hi All...

I know, it has been a LOOOONG TIME... It's about 3am, I'm doped up on prednisone which has the propensity to keep me awake for days, with my arm in a sling, (shark week has gone off for the night- bummer) - so I said, "Hey, let's blog"... LOL

I'm looking for something...

You may have seen it, you may have not,  uh... IDK... I feel like some of you, if I stop you on the street and ask for directions- that you will be "that guy" that sends me all around Jacobs barn to get there... You ever met someone like that?? Sure you haven't! Because it's you!!!  LOL- (a little 3am humor).

I don't know, sometimes I seem to find it- but then it eludes me, quickly in the night...  My GPS can't find it.  I have the field trip version GPS anyway.  You know how you can check the settings and it will say, "Fastest Route", or or or, "Quickest Time"?  - I feel like my GPS is stuck on "FIELD TRIP" or "Scenic Route" or something...

I just recently moved to a new state- so my GPS and I have been having it out- LOL.  I shouldn't say new state.  I moved back to where I'm from, just a new city.  New beginning, new start and NEW JOB!

Which brings me back to what I'm looking for...

So, I have this new job, which is HIGHLY demanding.  It is more demanding than any other job I have ever had.  The benefits are going to be great, and the hard work will surely pay off... Just need to find this thing..    Have you seen it?  It looks something like this:::::

Yep.  I cursed... LOL...

I have found myself very quickly in the throws of life and it is not always easy or as simple as we may want/need it to be.  Handling a rigorous masters program, demanding job, establishing relationships, reconnecting with family and just trying to live... I found out very quickly, that there are not enough hours in the day.  I'm going to be transparent.  Sometimes, I feel overwhelmed with all that needs to be done, that I SOMETIMES (not all the time) --- SOMETIMES, just choose not to do it.  As if it is going to go away... LOL

You know, that whole "peeping around the corner thing"- looking to see if what you are avoiding is still alive... LOL- Well, maybe you don't do it.  Maybe it's just me.

Buuuuut I don't think that it is.  I mean, it's funny.  Because I have more to do now, and I'm not even working in ministry- which is weird... But I can't imagine throwing that into the pot right now.  But I'm going to have to imagine.  Yes I am a worshipper, and that doesn't mean you only have to worship in church.  But I need an outlet- I gotta have something to do to RELEASE what is going on up in this spirit of mine!

 <----That's me...

I'm not frustrated that I'm not singing right now, it is just that I need to grab ahold of life and wrangle that joker in.  Isn't that the life of a virtuous woman?  She cooks for her family, she works hard, and she makes sure she creates from her increase.  She stocks up, she's a business woman, a woman of ministry to her family, her husband and to her Lord.  All that in one day! LOL!  IT CAN BE DONE...   A Virtuous Woman's worth is far above rubies.

I'm also a spiritual mom.  A job that I take very seriously- raising a young lady to be the woman God called her to be.  It's a big job and requires time.  Being a "God Mom" is no easy task, but again, the reward of seeing someone's life be changed, and see them walk in their destiny- is worth every moment.

That's her right there ------------->>>>>>

And she lives with me!!!! LOL- So I'm not the call on the phone in the midnight hour kind of mentor.  I'm more of that 24 hour kind... LOL

A good friend once said to me.  "Sometimes you are called to "do life" with others, and when you are called to that- you just walk through it.  Everyone is not going to always understand.

I also have one baby that I left in Richmond (THAT I AM SUPER PROUD OF)) that I need to talk too... So if she is reading this- she needs to give a sistah a call!!!! LOL!  - I'm not gonna put you on blast in the blog, I know you are busy :)

What I have learned from this about others is that some will hate, some will talk, some will despise and try to destroy, some will support, some will undergird and push you forward.  There is always a choice of who to focus on.

So I have alot going on.  It's not alot of irons in the fire, but the irons that are in there- require alot of DETAILED work.  I didn't even mention maintaining old friendships (because I moved away)- the group I sing with, the new friends/relationships, the new ministry endeavors,------------- the list does not end.

But to whom much is given, much is required.  ((SO SUCK IT UP-))- lol

SO NOW...  There you have a small portion of why I'm looking for something...

It is very important that you learn to balance them all.  I was in church Sunday, and the pastor was preaching.  He said something along the lines of, "You are not great if you are great in church and not great in your home".

So many homes are in disarray, discombobulation, and disorder because they are fighting to be someone in the church- and are not even priests in their own home.  Who cares if you have people that honor you at church and your own children despise you?  A virtuous woman's children rise and call her BLESSED.  At least thats what MY bible says.

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Stop despising all that you are required to do.  Just because you have alot to do, does not mean it is not of God.  There is such a thing as "busy work"- but it is between you and God and your mentor's what you should and should not be doing.  Make sure your motives are right as to why you are doing what you are doing, and do it to the best of your ability.  TRUST ME- you cannot despise the laundry list- you must attack it with grace and be honored that God chose you-. AGAIN, to whom much is given, much is required.   Work hard to eliminate distractions....

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LOL- This picture needs to also say Iphone.  I was supposed to get my Ipad this weekend... SHOOT- it's tax free weekend! LOL- but I have so much on my plate right now, that lesson plans, the chapters for school, the chapters for work that are supposed to be read, the goals I'm supposed to be setting would quickly be forgotten once I got my new toy! LOL- I'm going to get one- sho' nuff.  Jesus clicked my "like" button, so I'm not worried about that.  I just chose to be a big girl and wait until I get settled before I get a new toy.  *not easy being mature* - LOL.

SO- there you have it folks.  BALANCE.  Oh!  Did I mention leave time to have fun?  Hang out? Take in the sites?  You go right on ahead and spend your days and nights in church if you want too.  You will despise it once you realize there is no reward for that.  Only what you do for CHRIST will last, not to please others.  ((That's another blog))-- CHECK YOUR MOTIVES PEOPLE.  That's all I'm saying.

Pray With Me.

Wait... First listen to this....

Sing this song over yourself, over your situation, over your to-do list,over everything...  It will bring peace..

Now we can pray...

God, I thank you that you reign.  That you have given me much because you trust me.  Help me to see my life through your eyes to know that what is going on in my life is simply to bring you glory.  I won't be overwhelmed, your word says in Psalms 61:2 that I can come to the rock that is higher than I.  Your word also lets me know in Psalms 91 that I can dwell in the safe place, the secret place.  God draw me to your secret place.  Holy Spirit, speak and give me strategy for my life so that I may be that Virtuous Woman, or that Man of Valor and manage my home and life in excellence.  I give it all to you.  Thank you that I am safe with you Lord to make mistakes.  Thank you for grace.  Change my perspective so that I can see how you have honored me with such great Kingdom Assignments.  I don't take it likely, and I repent for despising them or complaining about them.  I love you Lord, show me balance.

In Jesus Name.

Be Blessed, and Keep the King first.

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