Give me a clean heart

Gonna just write from my heart, from my season... Hope it helps, or blesses.... :)

I don't know if you have noticed, but I have been writing about the heart alot lately.  I didn't notice it myself until I took the time to reflect.  I'm really in a season where God is working on my heart.  We know, out of the heart the abundance of the mouth speaks... and from it flows the issues of life... and all that good stuff... And its true.  Its all very true.

I want my heart to be pure...

This heart has been through! LOL - its broken, got some patches on it - some cracks, dents and all kinds of just DRAMA.  I just want to share that no matter the state of your heart, Jesus can heal it.  This USED to be my heart.  Broken, cracked, patched and just DARK... and I was a Christian.

 I was just "damaged goods".  This is the case with alot of Christians,  stuff happens you know,  life happens.  Sometimes you find yourself being the one trusted with the hard stuff, and it can result in a broken or wounded heart.  Or you make a choice to trust others, and give them a piece of your heart - and they smile, take out their knife - and stab you in it.  Sometimes you are just dealt a tough hand, and God has a plan for it all to work together for the good, but you gotta get there first - LOL - (((or - make up in your mind to enjoy the journey)))

Its true.  Disappointment can be another crack.  Just STUFF.  And God see's it all.  He does, and He's just like... Its okay, just give it to me.  You will learn how to trust again, you will learn how to love again.  Just give me your heart.

Sometimes our hearts are so guarded.  We have been through enough drama with people, that we just DON'T TRUST.  Because when you try... well you know... Do you know that you can come to a place where you can trust again?  and you know what, you may trust again, and something else may happen, but you can trust God to show you how to quickly recover and move forward...  So Jesus says, just give me your heart... I'll fix it...

He takes it, and starts to break down the walls..  this can hurt... Because vulnerability, even with the Lord when you have been hurt is not easy.  But don't worry, you are in good hands...  When those walls are broken down he gets some soap, lathers His hands up really good, and gets to work.

He scrubs, He rinses, scrubs, rinses - and you know, a scrubbing can hurt sometimes.  Your like - DAG! This hurts worse than what was there before! LOL - But its all for your good.  The bible talks about the washing of water with the word....  Who knows how long it takes - but enjoy the journey.  Because if you are in the hands of the master - its the safest place in the world.

Jesus rinses your heart off...  Gets all the soap and the left over impurities out.  So that he can FLOW through it - look at the water coming out of the bottom of the heart.  Its clean.  Clean water - so others can drink it right??? ((read about this in yesterdays blog here))...  The Holy Spirit is so awesome.  Moments like these are so refreshing. Pure water washing it all away.  The scrubbing may be uncomfortable, but the rinsing brings new life!

So I admonish you today.  When the Lord shows you your heart, give it to Him.  Let him scrub it, let Him break down the walls, let him rinse you off so that you can just be free to be who He designed you to be.  Ask God... What is my real personality like?  Things happen that change our personality.  We were mistreated as children, so we aren't as outgoing as we would have been if that never happened.  Some may have been abused as children, so they are more quiet and reserved and passive than they would have been, had they not been touched.  Some come from homes where there is nothing but arguing, fussing, and fighting, those are the ones its hard to be honest with, because their first reaction is to explode.

All of that is a facade.  Its not real.... The real you is down there somewhere.  Ask God to clean your heart, and get all that stuff out so that you can be who you were designed to be... Would you recognize yourself?  What do you really look like?  Ask God what are the situations that have formed your personality and how to completely recover from those.  The goal is to be a vessel fit for the masters use.  Thats my goal anyway.


Be Blessed, and Keep the King First...

Your Killing Yourself

Hmmm....

This is something that we yell out at church all the time before the preacher can even finish.  But is it something that we really live by?  What I like about this picture is that it is not balanced.  Thats what I like about it - but thats also the downfall.  If this picture were your heart would there be more black or white??  Think for a moment.  Which one would it be?  Now, I'm not talking about what you say when others are listening... What do you think most?  Is everything always wrong?  No matter how blessed you really are, you could always have more? Or, this could have happened another way and it would have been better?  Or are you mad at whats NOT happening? What is mostly in your heart?

What we must always remember is that we think more than we speak.  And YES, the power of life and death is in the tongue ~Proverbs 18:21~ --- but where do your words come from?

Matt 12:34b - Out of the abundance of the heart - the mouth speaks...

So if your heart was a fountain, and your words were water, would your water be brown?

now that picture is disgusting, i know what you are saying... but think about it?  Is that what your word - water looks like?

Then we fill up a cup of this dirty water, and hand it to people to drink....


...0.o... ((blank stare))

Thats what we do everytime we open our mouth to others whether its ministry or conversation and our words are just... dirty

... not dirty as in 4 letter words - but words are spiritual forces - that have the ability to CREATE (whether we like it or not, or believe it or not, or walk in it or not) and we live in the world we create.

Its hard to be around people that nothing is ever right.  But it must be even harder to be that person.  ARE YOU THAT GUY??? lol - I'm being funny, but its something that we ALL must ask ourselves.

I bet if we started handing these out, people would change what they say!

Listen, I'm only saying this because, well, because no one else may tell you.  No one wants to sit there and listen to you complain.  No one wants to sit there and listen to you be sad all the time.  No one wants to constantly be bombarded with whats WRONG in your life!  COME ON!  Really??? STOP ASKING ME TO DRINK DIRTY WATER!!

When you are a child of the King!  The RICHEST king on earth!  HE OWNS IT ALL!  HALLELUJAH!  He's the problem solver, He's the way maker, He's the healer - He's the advocate, the banner, our righteousness, our PEACE...  Our joy... Our love... OUR SANITY...


He Is...  I AM.

SOOOOO....

No one wants to hear all of that.  Really.  Time to grow up- and GROW OUT of some of the stuff.  I have a good friend - we talk every day.  We can talk to each other about whats going on in our lives, because its never a grump fest.  Its always - okay, how can I deal with this, how can I move past this, I need wisdom so that at the end of the day, God is still pleased with what I do.  Keep me in line... Keep me in the will of God...  Kick me when you see i'm headed in the wrong direction.  KEEP ME ACCOUNTABLE!  DON'T LET ME KILL MYSELF WITH MY WORDS!!!


**PUSH PAUSE***

I remember one day I was driving, and was having a HARD DAY... lol - just thinking of it makes me laugh... and I went IN... I mean, this is wrong, and this is wrong, and THIS is wrong... and blah blah blah!  Do you know she rose up and REBUKED ME???  LOL - and you know what I did???


I shut up.


Because she was right...  I have waaay to much power, knowledge, favor and grace on my life to sit there and complain!


LOVE MY FRIEND!  Because thats ironing sharpening iron.

Be careful of the people that let you just dump and won't help you progress or say, okay, thats enough - now how can you turn this around?

But also be mindful - everyone won't receive it - because some would rather stay where they are...


If you are that person that always complains, or your heart picture is more black than white - there is a solution for you...

I don't mean, thanks God for today... and then the rest of your day is filled with negativity.  No BE GRATEFUL.  If you have to go as far as make a LIST.  Make a list of all the things you are grateful for.  You will find that as you begin to THINK on those things, you will begin to feel lighter.  TRUST ME.  You have waaaaaaay more to be grateful for thank you think.

WHY?  Because the devil comes to steal kill and destroy,  he doesn't want you to think on the goodness of the Lord.  And you are letting him succeed....

Make a grateful list.  Carry it around with you.  When you feel yourself slipping, start thanking God for everything on that list.  I mean, really, we have SO much to be grateful for.

God is bigger and better every day than we give him credit.  Find out how to honor God today with your thoughts and with your thanksgiving.  TRUST ME, IT WILL MAKE A DIFFERENCE.  You may have to fight your FLESH - (that would rather complain) but trust me its worth doing.

See... James 1:8 says a double minded man is unstable in all his ways, he shouldn't think he will receive anything of the Lord...  so coming out with scripture every now and then, but the rest of your day, your thoughts and your words are filled with words of death,  you are confusing the flow, God is like - nope - you get nothing...


Cause honestly if you get it - it won't last long because you aren't grateful.  We all have that "one thing" that we think if we had it, or if this was over, then you would be happy, and its not truth... Because no matter what state - abase or abound, we have to be content.  Thats what Paul said.

Pray ur self happy!  (yeah i fudge it! so what??) LOL

Take your list and pray it.  Make it a great day.  Make it a great week.  Make it a great LIFE!  WHY NOT???????

Don't want to stay in the state that your in... God loves you enough, let him shower his love on you.  You want to see His love? Reflect on His goodness to you SO FAR, and stop thinking about whats NOT... You won't see the WHATS NOT, until you learn to be grateful, thankful, and content with WHAT IS.

I'm just sayin...

Be Blessed... and Keep the King First...